Faith

I'm wanting to write about what this says's. FAITH And as I write this I hope I won't get in trouble so I'm asking for forgiveness rather then permission...... It's about Janica and Cam. She is such a sweet heart and Cam is so strong. Some of us have trails to go through and for what ever reason we get our Faith tested. Cam and Janica has been truly tested this year with Faith as well as family members sharing in their experience. I hope that Jancia like I said will forgive me for writing this but this whole blog is a part of my journal of life. Good and bad. Who wants the bad to be written but it helps us reflect and learn and grow at the same time. Cam and Janica have been trying for the past 3 yrs to have a family. They have kept it pretty much private to them selves other then the close family members knowing. They have had tests done. Janica had AI (artificial insemination) to where now they have had two invetros done this past yr. Once in May and Once in Dec. Both resulted in they did not get pregnant. When the first one was done in May you just have this hope that gee its gonna happen. Here comes the baby....and it didn't. For me it felt like a death had occurred. Just was soo sad. That was just my feelings. Feeling so sad and heart broken for my daughter. But what kind of feelings was she going through?? A lot more then me. Then to make the second decision to do it again in December and feeling like Yes its going to happen, you have prayed and felt like Heavenly Father hears you and it does not happen again. We just want this simple little thing to happen. I know that Cam and Janica have had their own battles of feeling left out, anger, and why?? Its hard not to be angry. But I am truly amazed at the love and support they are to each other. Cam is soo kind and good with Janica. And in return Janica with Cam. They have not let their negative feelings come out which I know their is but they have been so postive and not letting the bad feelings come out. Their are A LOT of couples that suffer this problem so I don't think we are special. But it's just hard to watch a couple to struggle with not getting pregnant knowing they would be such great parents. So my thoughts come back to that one word "Faith" makes things possible..... not easy. It's truly easy to give up, but harder to hold on. I know that deep in my heart they will have their children here to raise. Adopt who knows that choice is up to them. But I have to hold on to the Faith that it will happen. Janica puts me in my place as to how obedient and faithful she is to keeping her faith. I know these trials for them two have brought them closer. We just have to keep positive that things could change. I'm grateful for my testimony of Faith. I was tested in the beginning of when Dave and I were starting our family. We experienced 2 still born baby's and a miscarriage. But I had four beautiful children come to me and it was not easy but I had the opportunity to be a mother and fulfill that part of my life. I know that Janica and Cam will have that same opportunity we just have to hold on hard and never give up.